It's so funny because I really think God is trying to tell me something. It's so easy to lose focus on what's really important. Especially when bills are due, schools is about to start, work etc... Well lately I've been really thinking about time and how it relates to me. Specifically how fast Simon is growing up. Part of that came from looking at old video and photos of when he was a baby, then getting a call from my older sister about her son starting college, and then from a conversation with a friend today.
It's amazing at how fast kids grow right in front of your eyes. So fast you don't even see it! I remember when I thought he'd never walk or talk, that I'd be carrying him around forever in my sling, but before I knew it, he was independent and no longer needed his stroller. Now, he's three. His last year (in what I consider) full toddlerhood. By four he'll officially be a little boy. I'm really trying to cherish this year and let him be a kid. Not get on to him too much about the small stuff (like now where he got my spoon I was cooking with and spilled tomato sauce on the floor) and most of all to play with him more.
I admit it I have sat him in front of the TV or the Wii so I can get some time on the computer. I mean, something major may happen on Facebook!! Or, I might get the all important email in my inbox! Even now...on blogger! But talking to my sisters, who are sending their boys off to college in a little over a week, I feel their sadness. I'm tearing up right now thinking about it because they were my babies too, and now they're not longer babies. They're men. Soon it will be mine. I don't want to think back about the time where Simon asked me to play with him and I didn't because I was "too busy" or something or someone else needed my attention. I want to think I did everything in my power to spend these important times with him so I won't look back with regret. I know no matter how much time you spend with them isn't enough and we do have adult responsibilities, but it takes just a small bit of time to make a big difference.
It's amazing at how fast kids grow right in front of your eyes. So fast you don't even see it! I remember when I thought he'd never walk or talk, that I'd be carrying him around forever in my sling, but before I knew it, he was independent and no longer needed his stroller. Now, he's three. His last year (in what I consider) full toddlerhood. By four he'll officially be a little boy. I'm really trying to cherish this year and let him be a kid. Not get on to him too much about the small stuff (like now where he got my spoon I was cooking with and spilled tomato sauce on the floor) and most of all to play with him more.
I admit it I have sat him in front of the TV or the Wii so I can get some time on the computer. I mean, something major may happen on Facebook!! Or, I might get the all important email in my inbox! Even now...on blogger! But talking to my sisters, who are sending their boys off to college in a little over a week, I feel their sadness. I'm tearing up right now thinking about it because they were my babies too, and now they're not longer babies. They're men. Soon it will be mine. I don't want to think back about the time where Simon asked me to play with him and I didn't because I was "too busy" or something or someone else needed my attention. I want to think I did everything in my power to spend these important times with him so I won't look back with regret. I know no matter how much time you spend with them isn't enough and we do have adult responsibilities, but it takes just a small bit of time to make a big difference.
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