Tough week

This week was good and bad. Good because God was gracious enough to give me another birthday and bad because it was a difficult week with my lovely son. Saturday I decide to make some homemade pizza for dinner and Simon wanted to help me so I pulled up a chair to the stove for him to put on the mushrooms. He tasted the homemade marinara and wanted more so I gave him a little bowl of marinara for him to eat and I had to move the chair to take one pizza out and put in another. I didn't want to disturb him so I thought I'd just move him myself. The chair went right and Simon went left and fell directly on his head onto the tile. I get shivers just thinking about that awful sight and sound and of course I picked him up immediately and just cried and cradled him. It was horrific and something I hope never happens again because I felt so bad for him. That night I couldn't sleep well because I was so afraid that there was an underlying problem and I would wake up to find him dead or in a coma and I just had to pray about it. Luckily there's a doctor in the family and he did put my mind at ease but the guilt just ate at me.

Then...on my birthday, yesterday, we had another poo poo incident. He had not poo'd in four days and I could just see he was trying his hardest not to poo. He would dig himself into the sofa just so he wouldn't have an accident and it just broke my heart so...I went and got him some liquid laxative. He is not a good medicine taker so I had to force it down his throat and he freaked out and cried and vomited three times from the gag reflex. Luckily Darren was home so he showered him while I cleaned up vomit and pee (poor baby peed in his pants) and I was so tired of the anger, frustration and guilt I've been feeling about him pooing on the potty!! I spoke to a great friend of mine (Thank you Laura!!) and she helped the both of us come to a decision to just stop tying and let him come to us when he's ready. I cried and told Simon that he can poo in a pull up and it's okay with us. I just wanted this to stop and get him regular again before it really effects him. I'm so happy with that decision because now we all relax. In fact today, I went and got him some cheap pull ups and put them on him and told him to go poo and sure enough, he did!! I just want him to be healthy and not have this as a source of anxiety.

Today has been a good day so far and I'm praying that this week will be one as well. I'm so thankful for everything and everyone in our lives and truly feel blessed.